why would i think anything would happen differently then the way its happening right now? do not ever expect the best when the worst is the inevitable. dont let your head get too high because that only makes the fall harder, shit is fucked from the start so its best to leave yourself in a state of stagnant mediocrity rather than keep reaching for something that is bound to turn inwards on you. there isnt anything besides trying. doing is only accomplished after try and try, why cant i try more than twice though?